Care Packages!

SO, it has been just about three weeks since my husband has left for deployment and i have been one busy bee. First with having to move from San Diego to Colorado Springs, change PCM's for me and my daughter (which is so hard to find a Dr. at 36 weeks pregnant), deal with tricare and deers and just plain old trying to get settled in.  basically now...i just want this baby to come out :]  i am 38+2 weeks pregnant and let me tell you...my poor body can hardly handle this anymore.

the fatigue is wearing me down and i can hardly play with my daughter which makes me sad because i dont want her to think that i dont want to play with her....i just physically cant without feeling awful pain in my tailbone.Thank goodness for both me and my husbands family. they have all been amazing with helping me out and showing Cheyenne all the attention she deserves since i cant give her all of that.My husband and I are so lucky to have such wonderful family.

Anyway....point is....Baby Carson, im ready whenever you are!

So having said all that, i have been staying busy by preparing care packages for Spencer.i received an email this morning that he got his first package a few days ago!! he loved it.  I want to share the packages with all of you and i hope this could give inspiration to your own care packages as well!

Care Package One

i did not decorate this package because i was so anxious just to get it to him!

it includes:

• Magazines & Newspapers
• Pens (he's a pen theif)
• gold bond foot powder
• deodorant
• extendable back scratcher (he said it was his most proud item int he box)
• boot insoles
• macadamia nuts
• sour cherry bombs
• beef jerky
• granola bars
• nail clippers
• loofa
• toothbrush sanitizer
• to go snapple
• air freshners that smell like home
• chapstick
• flossers
• and some games, pictures, and cards from family members.

Bed, Bath, and Beyond is one of my favorites to get things because they ahve the most ridiculous stuff that always makes my husband laugh like the back scratcher...lol

Care Package Two the birthday box!

Spencer's birthday is september 21st but with the new baby coming soon, ill be really busy.

Cheyenne helped decorate the outside

she did NOT like the paint lol

Back to the future theme

Devils food cake in a jar for him and three other buddies

(im sure he'll keep them for himself )

since you cant send aerosol cans of icing get the tub of icing OR these awesome icing baggies!

they are easier to fit int he box and they can squirt it inside the jar!

this box included:

• Magazines
• Jar cake & icing
• shoe polish kit
• cooling towel
• wet suit anti chafe
• part poppers
• razors
• shaving cream (non aerosol)
• photo album
• 3 mini water guns
• wisp quick tooth brushes
• shout wipes
• birthday cards from family





 

 



 

 







Foiled.

The past month has been a train wreck. From having to sell my husband's POS car to the state to getting all the little bits and pieces of last minute deployment stuff together...meaning that the plan for me to stay in San Diego while my husband is gone for 7+ months on deployment is foiled.
I am now back in my home town of Colorado Springs with family to help me with the kiddos, which has been lovely since i am in my last stretch of the pregnancy and it is extremely hard to keep up with my 16 month old.
The send off for the CG-53 USS Mobile Bay was on July 27,2010 and i surprised myself...
i literally believed that i would be a basket case the entire day but i managed to keep myself together quite well... thats until i was getting ready for the actual departure, i was in my room and i could hear my husband sobbing as he was in our daughters room just down the hall.
That...broke me.
As much as i wanted to go in there and give them both a huge hug, i couldnt cause then i wouldnt have been able to get myself back together.
The send off is exactly as it seems...sad and long...
it wouldnt be the military if they didnt make you wait forever to find out when they would actually leave right? :]
Left and right i see friends and other families i knew also crying but the worst part of the entire day was hearing the younger children cry out to their daddy...
That...broke me again.
It was the saddest thing i have ever seen.thinking about it now brings tears to my eyes.

This deployment will be long...i've been without him for 6 months because of boot camp and school, but this time...ill have to give birth to our son without him, raise our kids, and still be his backbone and his bestfriend.this is going to be a challenge for the both of us but im excited, scared, and anxious until his arrival next year.
I love you so much spencer :]

Some pictures from the sendoff!!

Spencer and his Mom :]

talking to her daddy (red hat)

Spencer int he red hat manning the rails

Until next time my love :]

The plan...maybe?

As most military wives are aware, there is no planning when it actually comes to the military.  Things never go as planned, they get postponed, changed...whatever.
Having said that, it is the exact reason why we still havent had a wedding ceremony.  I have not planned anything for birthdays, anniversaries, or other holidays like valentines day and mothers day because military duty comes first.  Many of us wives or girlfriends have gone through this or have gone through the change of orders or last minute deployments OR changed dates for deployments.  I cant even tell you how many times my husbands deployment has been rescheduled...march, to june..to august...now july.

OH and not to mention how many last minute underways we have gone through...
We found out yesterday that he leaves friday for an underway for three weeks but has duty thursday so i wont see him tomorrow night.
I'm trying not to complain because i love knowing that my husband is doing this for our family and for our nation and i am so proud of him for how hard he works, how hard he studies for school, and how he still comes home to our family with a smile and still has the energy to play with our 13 month old daughter before she goes to bed and spend time with me...everynight.

Yes, the military does compensate for how much we go through and im extremely thankful for everything we get out of it.  I have great things that i would not have on my own...a beautiful house, soon to be two kids with medical expenses fully covered and much more...
the real reason why i had to vent tonight though::::::

how do i prepare myself for this deployment...i dont even think anyone can prepare themselves to NOT have their bestfriend, their husband, their childrens father away from them for this long of a time...
I've been an army brat my whole life since my dad was in the army and i thought i would have this stuff down already...but i guess its not that easy.

SO...the plan for now...

Im styaing here in San Diego.  Alot of spouses go back to their home or record to be with family while their husband is away.  My mom and I have such a great relationship now than i did when i was in highschool and i know that going home will destroy our new relationship...i also need to stay away from my old habits considering i wasnt the sweetest or innocent child in the past.  I have my own family to look after now and we have a home. i need to start traditions here even if it means daddy will be away for awhile. this is going to be my biggest test for myself...probably the hardest.  with two kiddos around, im hoping it will help make things go by fast...

my friend said this once before...

"for a while the closet will be less than a few clothes,
the garage less than a few shoes,
the car less than a passenger,
our bed less than a lover,
our family less than the father...
and my everyday will be less than my soulmate and better half..."


With GOD i WILL get through this!

....all the way from San Diego

Blue or Pink...

All I can say is God is truly amazing and there is no question that he is watching over my little family.
right before leaving my appointment today, my husband calls and tells me the most reassuring news that the ship's underway was cancelled this week and he was on his way home to go with me to my ultrasound appointment.  This means, I didn't have to take my daughter to the babysitter and that they could both be with me to find out who the new addition to our family is going to be.
How amazing is it that this would happen to us when it always seems like me and my husband have the worst luck ever!  I am beyond thankful for how well this day went for us and to top it off.....We are having a BOY!!!
I feel like my family is complete, I have a beautiful one year old girl and now soon a handsome little boy.
I am so blessed. 
Lord, you never seize to amaze me.


Love...all the way from San Diego

Excited much??

It's 1:03 am...
I feel like a kid on Christmas Eve anticipating the arrival of Santa and opening all the gifts under the tree.  I can't sleep for the life of me because tomorrow is the day I find out the sex of my second baby!
Now, I dont know what it is about me but I just don't have a feeling of what it may be.  Most women say they "just know" whether its a boy or girl but me...no...not even with my first, Cheyenne.
Even if I guess what the sex is, it'll be the opposite considering thats exactly what happened with my first and  I was totally embarassed in front of the ultrasound tech.  The only downfall of tomorrow though, the Navy has kidnapped my husband once again and he can't be there and if he cant be there, niether can my daughter...
Instead, I was desperate to find a babysitter in to watch her for an hour (I did) because all of our family lives in Colorado Springs.  I promised that i would write my husband about the appointment right when I find out. I'm crossing my fingers that he is able to check his email since thats the only communication I have with him until he gets back.
I think I'm more excited about finding out this time then i was about findint out about my first baby.  With your first i was imagining what life would be like with either a boy or girl but this time, all i can imagine is what life is going to be like for Cheyenne.  If its a girl, they'll be the best of friends...if its a boy, then i'll have to protect him from Cheyenne picking on him and dressing him up! Either way, Cheyenne is going to be great. She loves other babies.

Anticipation, anxious, excited...Gosh I just feel so much more than that! I can't wait!